Friday, August 14, 2015

  • 有时候 我真的觉得好寂寞
  • 虽然你什麽都没说 只是紧紧的抱着我
  • 却轻轻对我说 我只是 普通的朋友
  • 爱的感觉不同 付出的爱没有结果

  • 想不透 我知道自己没有错
  • 爱你的心忘了上锁 傻傻让爱变成一种折磨
  • 你对我一点不在乎 我还是爱的不认输
  • 对你的爱我选择了让步

  • 被放逐在寒冷的边际
  • 去学习暧昧不清不是甜蜜
  • 不再理所谓的不公平
  • 静静的离去 轻轻的闭上眼睛

  • 想不透 我知道自己没有错
  • 爱你的心忘了上锁 傻傻让爱变成一种折磨
  • 你对我一点不在乎 我还是爱的不认输
  • 对你的爱我选择了让步

  • 被放逐在寒冷的边际
  • 去学习暧昧不清不是甜蜜
  • 不再理所谓的不公平
  • 静静的离去 轻轻的闭上眼睛

  • 静静的摆在那里
  • Thursday, July 23, 2015

    爱你浪费时间
    恨你浪费眼泪
    相信你的誓言 还不如去相信这个世界上有鬼

    没有真心的人 只是爱情的残废

    Thursday, July 16, 2015



    Happy Birthday.




    Tuesday, July 14, 2015



    Not making any sense, I meet other people
    Not making any sense, I try to love another person
    When my love is only you
    I hate myself for laughing with someone that isn't you

    I stop by that place that you liked
    I pick out some clothes that you would like
    And I celebrate a birthday of someone that's not you
    Even I think I am pretty ridiculous

    Wednesday, July 08, 2015

    I have been thinking for the past few days and I actually felt disappointed more than upset. All this while, I have been trying too hard to keep you as a friend. I put in effort to randomly drop you messages cause I know that if I don't do so, we may end up not contacting each other at all. Perhaps it was too selfish of me to want to still remain as friends that I failed to see if you wanted to do the same.

    You did nothing wrong. Honestly, you never did anything wrong. But I can't help getting mad at you as though you were at fault. I am not sure what's the best for me, for us. Maybe it's better for you to tell me? Or maybe I rather you don't say or do anything at all.

    Sometimes I wished we didn't had anything. At least we could still be friends now. Genuine friends that will randomly text to check on each other once in awhile. Genuine friends that will share troubles and still be part of each other's lives. But then the truth is, I am no longer in your life. There isn't a need to update me on your ups and downs anymore. And what made me felt really stupid is I still kept you in my life. I still have the thought of updating you on what I felt were major life decisions to me. To be honest, when I shared stuff with you, I really treated you as a friend. A friend whom I can confide in and seek comfort from. But when it's one sided, it's never gonna last.

    If we didn't start anything, at least we could still be like how we used to be. At least I wouldn't be left behind. At least I wouldn't be feeling what I am feeling right now :( 

    Monday, July 06, 2015

    Supposed to go yoga today but ended up coming home with 20 pieces of nuggets. Was really upset that Macdonalds no longer has the spicy nuggets and banana pie :(

    Anyway felt really guilty afterwards and spent an hour on the tracks. Sighs woes of being a woman. 


    Came across this article on 4 things that you should not do after a breakup - http://www.bustle.com/articles/78660-4-things-not-to-do-after-a-breakup-what-i-learned-from-my-first-breakup

    I think I have been doing all four for like the past 1.9 years. 

    I tried everything they tell you to do. I surrounded myself with friends, exercised like a fiend, wasted a lot of money on new clothes and manicures and blowouts, kept myself busy. But nothing worked. I couldn’t seem to move on.

    Thursday, July 02, 2015

    You made it pretty obvious that I would feel damm silly if I still don't get it.